What makes my world go round

A flower
A ray of sunshine in a rainy week
A spa vacation
A smile
My 10 years old son reaching for my hand when we walk
A kiss
A hug from my better half
Sitting in the grass
Flowers blooming in trees
Sunny breeze on my cheek when reading outside
Baby laughing in the swing
My mom giving me hand made yoga socks just because I like yoga
Holding the door for an elderly
Meeting my best friend at Starbucks
Attending a yoga class
Meditation early morning
A bird singing
Laughing
Hand made gifts from my son
A butterfly
A lady bug
A home made meal that my son and husband love!

Waking up to the sound of a quiet rain

Smelling the flowers through the breeze 

Starbucks

When I started this blog, I had put in one blog the rules (look at my blog from Jan 9th entitled "What is essential?") for that challenge we came up with.  One of the rule was that we would keep our monthly SPA Finlandais visit that we considered was important for our health and our daily chai latte at Starbucks that we considered being part of our meals...

Well, on those 2 subjects, there has been some changes...  Since the beginning of the year we went to the Finlandais only twice: on Jan 1st and sometimes in March...  so this rule seem to have change naturally!  We did not make an effort to change it, or cut down...it just happened! 
As for Starbucks (now, those really close to me will think that I have finaly completely lost it!), we slowly got saturated and are not so much into it anymore!  We even realized that the last few weeks, we have been going as an habit, even forcing ourselves to go!!  Not because we really wanted to, but because we were used to do it!Like brushing our teeth!!!  So as of now, I have not had a Starbucks since Sunday 5pm....  that is almost 48 hours which honestly is a record for me who passes by a Starbucks 3-4 times a day!!! And used to have at least 2 per days - sometimes 3!!! I am not saying that I will never go again!!! I still love a grande soy tazo chai!  But we decided that the best time for us to go would be in the morning on the week end!  This is the one we enjoy the most!  As we have time to sit down, chat, read...  We will also go upon invite! A few people we meet now and then are use to meet us there and they also enjoy it!  So this will stay.. I will not refuse an invite to Starbucks!

So I said I would keep you posted if we made changes to the "rules"... Well I just did...  even thus, at the time, beginning of January, I would have bet we would have made the rules more loose and not cut even more...  but this is just happening!  This is how my husband and I feel... we are not trying to make this harder but we feel like cutting even more is somehow getting easier... Voluntary simplicity here we come!  At first we forced ourselves into it!  But now, it is forcing itself into us!!!

How strange is that???  I have been told quite a few times in my life that I am different or weird...  and I assume it!  Or try to!  Even thus it is not always easy to swim upstreams!  but I realize now that if you can let go of what people say or think, it gets easier... and someohow, we are all different... even if some people stick out more, I think that they are just more easily assuming their differences!  It comes with time!

Transformation

I have gone thru many stages in my life... like most people!  We change slowly but surely... We all do!  All the time! The thing is, this change happens so slowly that  it almost goes unnoticed....  We can only realize it when we look at past years and see who we used to be versus who we are now... 

The thing that I feel happening in me now is completely different... and way more scary!  It's like I am undergoing a fast foward change... I see changes happening, I can feel them... and I have a clear vision of where this will bring me even thus I am not quite ready to be there...  In order to explain it, lets assume you watch the last 10 minutes of a movie, then you go back to the beginning and fast foward to the end...  does that make sense???

The only reason why I think this may be happening is because of my yoga teacher training...  It forces me to think, meditate, practice, read, think again and gather all the information I have accumulated over the last couples of years to make it One!  It links together my physical, mental and psychological bodies... it leads me to making decisions or changes to my life that will be forever permanent... There is no way I will do these things temporarely... I could not go back!  Now moving foward, often means leaving things behind... and this is why we usually change very slowly... so that this process is not conscious...  now by being concious, you are anxious to get where you are going but sad to let things go! Very oppsite and mixed emotions!

I am incorporating all the information I got about meditation, breathing, nutrition, physical activities, simple living organic, environment, social responsibilities...  and more... and somehow these are all linked! It's like if I had been working on a gigantic puzzle for years and I can finally see what it will look like...  only a few more pieces to put together and there it will be!  The result!!!

Not that I think that this is it... I will be set in stone for the rest of my life.... I know I will keep on changing but hopefully at a slower pace...  I do not think I will ever change so much in such a short time ever again!

I was talking to Renée one of my yoga teacher on Monday night and she was asking me how the training was going...  And my response was:  "Fine.... it is very exiting...  physically ok, theory ok... but it plays with my brain and I don't get how and why... It is exhausting! I tought I knew a lot about yoga" .  Her response was: (not a set quote)  I see what you are saying.. it's like you have a mirror right there a few inches form your face, and this mirror is always there - and allow you to see inside and out.  This is exactly what it is...  The image is not always pretty or not always what one wishes to see about themselves... But it is a reflection of who you are at the moment!  

On that note, I will try to go play with my son and laugh a little!  A way to stop my mind... like meditation!